Start of Second Quarter of 2k16
Tuesday, April 26, 2016 | 1:45 AM | 0 ruler breaker
Wow, time flies, and in a blink of an eye, it's coming to an end of April.
I think sometimes, I've to believe in Murphy's Law.
The more you don't want to meet someone, the easier you'll meet.
越不想遇到的人，越容易遇到。
This hit me strong enough as it happened to me the other day when I chilled with girlfriends after movie at Cathay's Starbucks. When we are on our way to Cathay from Bugis, while walking pass Parklane, I prayed hard that I won't see familiar face. The person whom I least want to bump into will be K. Things goes smoothly, till we start to chill at Starbucks.
Was chatting happily with girlfriends, till I saw someone came and sit at the table right in front of us. I don't know why but I just sense familiarity, and when I really take a good look at the side view of the guy, it's K... I freaked out, and my first reaction is to hide myself (which I don't know why) I whined to my girls saying that I feel like vomiting, and it really makes me feel uncomfortable. I admit that I still care about him, but I just don't like the fact that he still appears in front of me like that. I don't mind he appear a distance away, but I just don't like it when he appears so close to me. It's not the first time, it's the second time he appeared so close to me.
After our drinks, we decided to head out to the steps for smoke breaks. I've no idea why, but I turned and looked into the space where we were sitting earlier on to check if he's still in there. Peggy mentioned that she thinks the guy in there was him, then Soozhen mentioned "I thought he was the one behind us now" The moment I turned to check, I FREAKED OUT AGAIN! He's sitting right behind us, like OF ALL PLACES, RIGHT BEHIND US.
Soozhen and Peggy.
I think that just proves that we are fated to appear in each other's life, but not fated to be together.
On a side note, it's 方爸's birthday today! 帶我家的三老 to Triple Three for birthday lunch. I mean, since it's 1-for-1 with POSB/DBS card members, why not. May 我家的三老 be healthy and happy always, even though shits are pilling up. But as long as we stay together as one, we can conquer anything and everything!
Since April is coming to an end, I just pray and hope and will make May a better one. As I've planned out the events one by one already. Can't wait to for them to happen!
Till then, stay tuned.
Labels: #SDSPPLR, #SZandRJ, #zhenqijia, My life, That past of mine (K)
Chapter Three of Twelve
Wednesday, March 23, 2016 | 12:32 AM | 0 ruler breaker
Little did I know, it's already March.
Was pretty busy with work, and also clearing my space to have more rooms for decorations.
So, I just came across a sentence quoted from JJ Lin, which I find it relatable.
"I hope they will realise that some memories cannot be wiped away, and some relationships, once gone, can never come back."
I know I shouldn't be posting anything about K anymore, I can't help but to think about him when I saw this quote.
"... some memories cannot be wiped away, and some relationships, once gone, can never come back"
有些人总是不珍惜在眼前的爱情，往往等到失去后，才后悔。
Not every relationship will come back to you after you lose it for the first time. And not every relationship that return will be the same as it was in the first try.
We used to have a second chance in our love life, but somehow... With you selfishness, and my stubbornness, we ruined it with our own hands. If time could rewind, I believe, it'll still turn out the same. But I won't repeat what I did, and I will let it go readily.
In a blink of an eye, I'm living my life with no specific partner for 3 years. And I'm really getting used to it already. On a side note, I think I've forgotten how to be a nice and sweet to a guy, so to my next, please be a little patient when we start dating and more patient when we just get together (cause I've forgotten how to be a good girlfriend)
Alright, it's getting a little too late, I shall stop here.
Till then, Love youuuuuu.
Labels: Late night thoughts, My life, My thoughts
可惜没如果。
Saturday, July 25, 2015 | 1:07 AM | 0 ruler breaker
How can someone who's so close to you, just turn his/her back on you within a night?
Things between us was so much better when I was back in that industry. But ever since I start my new phrase, we distanced. We no longer text all day and night, neither do we have late night talks, and don't even mention on those unexpected video calls.
I guess, you're tired. Tired of my nonsense, tired of my childishness, my clingy-ness, or I would just say, you're just tired of me.
I'm just a burden of yours, I can't help you with anything, not your work, not your hobby, nothing. My existence only cause you to spend more money, cause I'm just an "expenses", not an "asset" to you.
Maybe, just maybe, when I'm more capable, you'll turn back and look at me again. I can't be assured that by then, I still hope for the best between us, but I just hope that we will still be friends, and you're still someone whom will still pick up that call when I'm down.
I remember how I used to "eye-candy" you when I was still in Primary school, more than a decade ago. I used to hang out with my childhood friend at the McDonald's nearby, and back then, you're just a part time waiter there.
I guess it's "fate" that brought us back to meet again. But this time, you're the customer while I'm the waitress. Not sure when was it, but I can't forgot how we actually "acknowledge" each other back again. You're using board 17 while I'm clearing the cups, and just when I walk pass you, you asked, "Do you stay around Jalan Besar? Last time always go McDonald with your Mom?"im
I was shocked! So shocked that at that point of time, I'm thinking "WHO THE HELL ARE YOU?! Why do you know where I stay and I used to go McD that often?" After around like 30minutes of thinking and thinking, I remembered that look. Not much of a change, but not that guy I used to see in McD (like duh~)
But we still don't talk, even when we became friends in Facebook. The first time we are sorta close, was when we went for supper together with our mutual friend. If I'm not wrong, was after X'mas or New Year.
Then there comes one day, we talked, in Facebook messenger. All day and night, till one day, out of a sudden, we decided to watch "Fast and Furious 7" together with our friends. Back then, even when we both have each other's number, we still communicate thru Facebook.
Just out of a sudden, he whatsapp me, but it's regarding our mutual friend. And there, we started talking and talking. Meet up individually for dinners, watch movie, darting and etc. We got so close till most of our mutual friends thought we are together, but the fact is, we are not.
We are just FRIENDS.
Sad fact, but that's true. We're just friends, nothing more. Maybe to others, we are like more than friends, but less than lovers. Maybe that few months when we were close, we really did gave people that impression, but sadly, things changed....
But I guess, it's alright. I've learnt the fact that people come and go. No point forcing someone whom want to leave to stay, cause at the end of the day, both parties will get hurt.
趁现在还没陷入太深，慢慢再爬起来会比较容易。
我不可能一直让自己陷下去。
可是，我很想问，我们到底有没有可能？
因为我很了解我自己，如果我真的真的把你当哥们看，我们就完全不会有可能了。
Labels: #NLJH, My life, My thoughts
Power of flowers.
Saturday, March 21, 2015 | 2:51 AM | 0 ruler breaker
Throwback to Valentines' Day.
I guess it's the first time in my life receiving roses on Valentines, and it's like delivered by the person. What's more, it's from someone I just met. Totally don't expect it. It might be awkward, but it's sweet. My second time receiving real roses, cause first was on my birthday. As much as I love the fact that I'm being treasured and someone's out there willing to do something to put a smile on my face, I still feel awkward though.
First time I receive a bouquet of roses, was a bouquet of fake roses, by J in 2012. At that time, I felt damn awkward, cause I'm damn under-dress, and he just hand me that bouquet of roses. I just hid the bouquet in my bag while we go for movie and dinner. After 3 years, that bouquet is still living and in good condition, and placed in the room. Well, fake roses don't die, they live forever.
Second time I receive a bouquet of roses, was my 21st birthday. It was delivered up to my hotel room, by the receptionist. The guy sent it to the hotel, but he don't want to deliver straight up to my room, cause he scared that I'll reject. Well, right at the moment when I receive the roses, my heart just flutter. A smile automatically appear on my face, I guess that's the power of flowers. But no matter how hard I tried to keep the roses living, it still wither after 2 weeks.
Third, was during Valentines. From someone I just met, like just started talking a day before Valentines. He asked me where will I be, and he have got something for me. I was like "hello, it's valentines day, and you're going to give me something, like 不对 leh" So I met him, he handed me this bouquet of roses, as usual, that I smiled. But before I take the roses, he told me I took 3 steps back, cause I was in shock! I tried hard to keep them alive, but only 1 stood strong. But it still withered after 2 weeks of fighting. Well, real roses wither, but they've the magic to make a girl smile when they receive it.
As much as I love receiving real bouquet of flowers, but I think it'll be a waste of money, cause real flowers wither. But if the guy really want to give me a bouquet of flower, I would rather he put a fake on in between, cause at least at the end of the day, I can keep one flower out of the bouquet of flowers.
Labels: My life, Valentines Day
Why oh why...
Saturday, February 7, 2015 | 5:24 PM | 0 ruler breaker
How I wish I aren't that weak when it comes to you...
Asking me to move on and get over it, but why did you even come back to explain to me, then push me away. I gathered a lot of courage to put everything behind already, but your one text at 3am makes me weak again.
You know I'll always have a weak spot for you, and you know how I will always give in to you. But you'll never know how hard I tried to gather those courage to leave everything behind or even bury them at the deepest part of my memory and lock it there.
Just one text, a text at 3 damn am, everything just floats back, that bridge I built towards you got tore down. You made me wonder, why things turned out this way. We both loved each other, but yet we have to bid goodbye. If we both have that courage to overcome everything together, will things still turned out this way?
To be very honest, as much as I want you back, there's always this part of me, disallowing myself to be ruined by you again. I don't want you, but yet I don't wanna lose you. So well, I guess, I could only say, I won't want you back as my boyfriend, but I want you back as a friend. Someone who actually know me almost all, and could give me the truth (even when it hurts)
They say, "once bitten, twice shy". Now, I'm giving you the third time to stay, as a friend. But I'm not going to be like how I was for the past two times, letting you run over me and not say a word.
Labels: My life, That past of mine (K)
Featuring J.
Tuesday, January 13, 2015 | 10:30 PM | 0 ruler breaker
This is just gonna be a post talking about this guy, Mr JordanKJW.
Because my previous post was talking about my ex, K, and well, I did mentioned about me getting close with this guy. So, I'm here to clear the doubts and stuffs and give this guy a clean and clear name (I don't want people to think that he's the 3rd party)
I met him when I was single (first broke up with my ex) and it's kinda funny how we first met. Still remember that night, I was out with my party peeps and was drinking at Liang Court. And one of them was drunk, in rebel... So have to drag him back to Liang Court and take care of him. So coincidentally, Jordan and clique were friends with my drunkard peep. They walked pass and asked what happened, because I wasn't really in sober state, I started whining.
Then, I don't know why and how, I became part of their clique... Was added into their groupchat, and started to meet up and stuffs. I remember the first meet up with the clique was to go Timber. At that point of time, there's nothing between anyone of us. Then suddenly, Jordan started personal messaging me. So that's when we started talking and stuffs.
Because last time, I'm still a party animal, I will join him and clique to party together. Basically, 1 girl and 5 guys(?) And Jordan never fail to take care of me, and handle my unreasonable nonsense. Still remember he will come over to my workplace to pick me and head down to Clarke Quay together... Like seriously.
He will meet me often and bring me out to eat and stuff. Never fail me let me go out with an empty stomach. Talking about eating, there's once, I'd a craving for Ikea meatballs, he traveled from home to Ikea just to get my cravings satisfied. He even send over to my workplace and then leave. How niceeeeeee.
Whenever we meet up, we never fail to take photos. Maybe because I was the one who ask him to take photos together. We can actually finish a pack of polaroid films within 30 minutes. The number of polaroids I took with him, is really way beyond what I expected. Like I never take so many instant prints with any other one, not even my girlfriends.
But well, ever since I got back with my ex, I don't meet Jordan often anymore. Because I know, I'm attached, and it's not very nice to meet him (at that point of time, he's still trying to chase me) And sooner or later, my ex found out about Jordan. We quarreled multiple times because I still talks to Jordan even when I know my ex don't like it. So one day, I decided to "cut" him off...
Ever since me and my ex boyfriend broke up, Jordan and I were contacting again. Even when we are still close, but I know he's no longer into me. We are just like best friends, and it's true that he knows me inside out. My secrets, my ups and downs, my sorrows and stuff.
The last met up with him, was around Chinese New Year last year. Accompanied him to places to get his stuffs done. And when I say last met up, was literally the last. Cause after that, he's attached with a girl who'll cherish him more than me. I'm glad for him, and I really really want his girlfriend to treasure him. (If not I don't mind giving her bitch slaps for hurting him!)
At times, I really do feel that I would be much happier if I chose him back then. Like, I won't suffer from betrayal, or hurt, or anything else. Because I know he'll treasure me very much. But then, think again... I won't regret not choosing him, because I know I can't give him the best like how she did. And I might end up hurting him. So yeap.....
Lastly, i don't know if you (Jordan) will be reading this, but I really wish the best for you! Treasure Glad and treat her well. You know I'll still be here to lend you a pair of listening ears, and give you some advice. I know talking to me will cause a lot of misunderstanding between you and Glad, but don't worry, I won't be the first contacting you, unless it's really really urgent/choice-less.
2012 September...
Timber.
September 2013...
And he's copying my expression.
"Girl-friend"
Wednesday, September 10, 2014 | 6:40 PM | 0 ruler breaker
And so, if you really did know me, or followed me on any social media, you would have know I'm very close with a girl by the name of Joyce/@rebelathearts(twitter)/@beyondxme(instagram)
As from the title and the photo, I guess it's pretty obvious what I'm gonna talk about in this post.
"GIRL FRIEND"
Well, it's pretty obvious that we are so close to the extend that we chat about anything and everything. But after knowing each other for a year, we are now separated. And the reason behind it, was me "flirting" with her crush. (That's what she claims)
I know people around her will think, "Why Ruijia do such things, it's too much!" "Why she flirt her 'sister's' crush?" "Why is Ruijia being such a bitch? Touch her 'sister's' guy" "Shameless bitch" and blahblahblah. To be honest, I don't really care how people sees me, cause I don't live up to other people's life/words/expectations/whatsoever.
First of all, if going out with a guy alone, is called flirting, then DAMN, I MUST HAVE FLIRT WITH A LOT OF GUYS.... Well, I know I shouldn't be having kinky talks with him, but wait, I DO HAVE SUCH TALKS WITH OTHERS. I mean, is it a crime to have kinky talk with a friend? If it is, or if that's flirting, then DAMN, I FLIRT WITH A LOT OF GUYS AGAIN! If I held his arm while crossing the road for once, and let go after crossing, is flirting? Then DAMN, I FLIRT WITH A LOT OF GUYS ONCE AGAIN! And if I jokingly say I want him to buy pandora for me, and he said he will (but he didnt, of course) is called flirting. THEN I THINK I SHOULD JUST COMMIT SUICIDE, CAUSE I DO THAT TO OTHER GUYS TOO, AND I'M FLIRTING WITH THEM.....
Another issue about our broken friendship was because she's disappointed in me, cause of my lifestyle. But wait, it's my lifestyle... I mean, yes, I know and understand that you're worry for me. But if you're using that to quarrel with me on top of the "flirting" issue, then damn, this friendship is hard to continue.......
I don't live up to anyone's expectation, and it's my life. I choose what I want and what I wanna do. People around me could only advice me and give me suggestions. I will listen to all advise, cause I know it's for my own good.
I wasn't that angry or upset because of the broken friendship, what makes me pissed and angry was that she was the one asking me to go Bangkok together at the end of the month, and now she's the one who wants to cancel her trip. I mean, I totally understand you won't want to travel with someone you've hatred for. But HELLO, you're the one who asked me to go, and we've booked everything, then you wanna cancel everything. Well played girl, well played.
It's alright then, I shall travel alone if I still can't find anyone to go with me. Cause at the end of the day, it'll be your lost, not mine. But it's just stupid when you cancelled the trip with me, and you're going to travel with your girlfriends on the same date as mine? So please don't let me see you in Bangkok, cause I don't want my mood to get affected by seeing you there.
Cause I don't understand why you'll think that I'm interested in your crush just because I went out with him and got pretty close. And if you think it's a revenge I'm taking because you're once close with my ex boyfriend, then damn, you're wrong. And that proves that you don't really know me well. One thing for sure, I don't do such shameless move, cause that's not what I will do. I will only make friends/bros with my girl-friend's crush/bf/husband/or even her friends. But well, I guess you'll never understand. And I'm fine with it. Hate me all you want :)
因为，所以。
Saturday, June 21, 2014 | 11:41 PM | 0 ruler breaker
今晚的我，读了当初的网上日记之后，想起你了。
还以为，我不会再被那些回忆给伤到。可是。。。。 我错了。
还以为，日子久了，回忆就淡了。 可是。。。。我错了。
还以为，不在去想，就不会记得了。 可是。。。。我错了。
原来，越想忘记的事，越望不了。
原来，最想忘记“我们”的我，一直都没把“我们”给忘记。
原来，那些回忆，还一直存在着。
那些美好回忆，就让它一直存在着吧。不想忘记，也不要忘记。因为，这些回忆，是你所留给我的所有。即使是多么的不开心，多么的不快乐，我都想牢牢的记着。所以，往日的我，不会在犯下一样的错误。
想一想，如果当初，我没有回到你的身边，现在的我，应该已经跟 J 过的挺开心的吧。应该，得到我该的快乐了吧。可是，因为太爱了，所以，我放弃了那位能给我一个稳定和快乐生活得人。
但也因为这样，J 找到了会爱他，珍惜他的那位她。
现在的我，只好好好的活，等会真正珍惜我，疼爱我，的那个他出现。。。。。
Labels: Late night thoughts, My life, That past of mine (K)
May I have the money.
Thursday, May 8, 2014 | 12:44 AM | 0 ruler breaker
So, May is here.
A brand new month, a brand new start. I believe I've been saying the same thing every start of the month, but things are still of the same. BUT, this time round, I'm serious in making a change, having a brand new start.
Maybe not a brand new start, but more of a brand new way of dealing things and I'll try to fix the problems I've created.
This time round, I'll study a little harder for that one damn burden module. I'll get more involved in housework. I'll get more part time jobs and earn more money. I'll work a little harder to achieve my goals. I'll exercise more so as to reach my ideal weight and shape.
There's so many things I want to do, now I've got the time and energy, but the only thing I'm lack of, is MONEY! Why must everything be linked to money? Even when I've got that little amount of pay, I can't do the things I want. Reason because I've got a huge debt to clear. I would have cleared the debt if I'm allowed to work overnight. Yes, it will ruin my body clock, but the pay is really damn tempting. Just by working for maybe a few months, I'm able to complete the whole debt. But sadly, strict family members are stopping me from working in that line. I see the cons for working that, but the money is the most important thing for me now!
If only I don't have any debts, I won't get so tied down. I won't have to worry so much when I wanna go overseas with friends. And I will be able to renovate the house earlier. Sighhhhhhhhhhhh.
Labels: My life
Good bye, April
Wednesday, April 30, 2014 | 6:25 PM | 0 ruler breaker
April is coming to an end, just in a blink.
What have I done in April? What achievement have I accomplish? What have I done to make myself feel proud? Did I make a difference for people around me or even for myself? Let's do a little flashback or I should say, a little "think back" session.
Was still in Luang Prabang (Laos) on the 1st to 6th of April. These 5 days of April spent there, was rather an exciting and fruitful week. Taught working Laotian adults some English that they could use it on their daily life be it for work or normal conversation with friends or family. What my #teamLaosTEAMB2014 taught was on how they could use email to communicate. But our main focus was on formal email (work basis). The bond I had with #teamLaos2014 and the Laotians were way beyond words could describe. Even though we are separated into two big groups at the end of the day, but we are still #teamLaos2014. And of course, me and my team are called the #teamPOYOYO.
After being back from Laos, I've been taking up temporary part time jobs. First is with Frank by OCBC for their event work over at NTU, which lasted for 3 days. But the pay was good and the working hours are short, so why not? I mean it's easy money, even though it's far. The next job I worked was located at Takashimaya for Butter Studio due to the Easter period. The pay isn't as good, but because I'd worked with them before, and my lady boss asked me to help out, so I agreed with it. 2 weeks passes in a blink, and I've completed almost 8 hours of job every day, promoting the products.
Meet up with #teamPOYOYO quite often and it just feel the same. The closure between us back here and back in Laos never change at all. It just get stronger, and I like the way we bond together.
Of course, there's good and bad in April. Enough said of the good, now let's talk about bad.
So, I believe if you guys have been reading my blog. I've been having quite a lot of late night thoughts, and it all came down to a special someone, Mr K.L. In April, we had a number of tiffs and unhappiness. Even though I tried to save it, but I still failed. I ended up making it worst and we ended up being more like a stranger than a friend. Times like this, I just wished that I didn't not mention anything to him. So that the friendship could last a little longer, that closure wouldn't die. But, what's said was said, what's done was done, and that closure is ruined. But like I always say, if you're mine, you'll be. If not friends we shall be.
I hope May will be as good as the past few months.
After being back from Laos, I've been taking up temporary part time jobs. First is with Frank by OCBC for their event work over at NTU, which lasted for 3 days. But the pay was good and the working hours are short, so why not? I mean it's easy money, even though it's far. The next job I worked was located at Takashimaya for Butter Studio due to the Easter period. The pay isn't as good, but because I'd worked with them before, and my lady boss asked me to help out, so I agreed with it. 2 weeks passes in a blink, and I've completed almost 8 hours of job every day, promoting the products.
Meet up with #teamPOYOYO quite often and it just feel the same. The closure between us back here and back in Laos never change at all. It just get stronger, and I like the way we bond together.
Of course, there's good and bad in April. Enough said of the good, now let's talk about bad.
So, I believe if you guys have been reading my blog. I've been having quite a lot of late night thoughts, and it all came down to a special someone, Mr K.L. In April, we had a number of tiffs and unhappiness. Even though I tried to save it, but I still failed. I ended up making it worst and we ended up being more like a stranger than a friend. Times like this, I just wished that I didn't not mention anything to him. So that the friendship could last a little longer, that closure wouldn't die. But, what's said was said, what's done was done, and that closure is ruined. But like I always say, if you're mine, you'll be. If not friends we shall be.
I hope May will be as good as the past few months.
Say something, I'm giving up on you.
Saturday, April 12, 2014 | 12:24 AM | 0 ruler breaker
Just when I thought that things get a little bit better, everything starts to crash down again.
I wouldn't say that I've the best of it, but I thought it did get a little, just that little bit better. But tonight, right at this moment, I came to realize that, everything was just my imagination. That little hope that I thought I saw, that little glimpse of light that I thought I saw, just go "poof" GONE!
Everything should have already get to a full stop a week ago. But, I choose not to let it end. And there, history repeat. There's a saying, "never fix a broken glass, cause you'll end up hurting yourself" and I find it very relevant to me. Why did I say it's relevant, it simply because I broke that "glass" in between us a week ago. Things should have left that way, and that's it. Why must I be so naive and think that we could be fine after that?
Actually, I won't blame you. You've made it very clear at the very start, just that I'm that naive to think that by working a little harder, to care a little more, to do a little more for you, could actually change a little and make you fall. But, I'm wrong. I'm dead wrong. Nothing's gonna change that. Nothing's gonna change the fact that you don't like me, and you never will!
It's coming to an end. I guess I shall not be dumb and hope that one day you'll actually fall for me. I've been dumb to do that in my previous relationship, I shall not do that anymore. Hoping for something that will never happen is purely stupid! But at least, at the end of the day, I could say I've tried.
If you're meant to be, you'll be. If not, friends we shall be.
Labels: #KLJW, Late night thoughts, My life, My thoughts
Throwback- 25th March Life?
Tuesday, April 8, 2014 | 11:52 AM | 0 ruler breaker
Just another late night thought.
My 6th sense can never be wrong about things. Why do I have to feel that I'll have to retake a module or two? Why do I have to think that I can't graduate on time? Why? Must those thoughts and feel be so right? Why can't they just be wrong for once? Just once, and surprise me by proving me that I felt wrong?
And yes, by reading the first part, you'll prolly know what's going on. My results are out, and it's how I expected it to be. (Just pass or fail) it just sucks to know that I've done this badly for my semester. I don't know if I should say it, but I'll partially blame it on the break up. But mainly, it's still me. Sigh.
Looking back at my three years of poly, I've seriously no idea what I did. I've been wasting a lot of time, on a guy, whom isn't worth it after all. I can never ever understand that. I've no idea why, I would rather spend time with him, than to study. I mean, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!
To be very honest, I don't mind retaking a semester. But what is a semester with one module which is only 2-3 hours lesson for a day?! For that, actually still alright, cause other days I can plan for work. But, WHAT IF THE SCHOOL FEES ARE STILL THE SAME?? Like $1k?! I just can't......
It just totally sucks man. People asked if I'm alright when I saw my results. I mean, I'm perfectly fine. But I've no idea why, when it comes to K.L, I just feel so inferior?! I mean, I just think I'm never good enough for him. Especially when this happen, it just demoralize me more. Maybe it's a sign? A sign that I should not have that high hope? 😔 可能，是個讓我放手的理由吧。
You just got that "thing" that makes me attracted to you. I can't put it in words, but just that "thing" that caught my eyes. And to be very very very honest, I honestly think that I don't fit him in every way. I aren't gentle; I aren't sweet; I aren't pretty; I aren't skinny. I don't have that "thing" that attract guys, or maybe I do, but they just attract the wrong ones. Too many things come to my mind when it comes to you. And I seriously hate it. Sigh.
Labels: My life
Throwback: 15th March
Wednesday, March 19, 2014 | 1:39 AM | 0 ruler breaker
And yes, the above photo is me with a devil horn. It's a "devil and angel" theme party held at Toxic.
Well, didn't really partied, but headed down to help Jason/Aloysius for the party. Didn't really have to mood to party thou, cause I've no idea since when the party mood is gone. Or maybe it's the group of people I party with bores me. Hmmmm. So I left Toxic and headed over to District 1 to look for Cheryl, and she told me Berlyn is there as well. I've no idea why, but I ended up joining Berlyn and bf and friends that night over at District 1. Hmmmmm. Didn't really stay long, cause like I've mentioned, I didn't have the mood to club.
On my Way back, I got damn pissed off because my dad is getting on my nerves. I spammed tweets and I've no idea why, people have mistaken it as me trying to refer to my ex. Ohya, forgot to mention that I actually saw him when I'm on my way to D1. Hmmmmm. But seriously, I've no idea why people will think that I'm mentioning about him. Hmmm.
Thank goodness I ranted every single thing out to K, and he's so understanding that he let me rant it all out without saying much. (Guilty much) but really thank you k for being so sweet to listen to me rant. Ohya, both of this K and my ex have the same first initial, "K", but they're like an angel and a devil. Like the theme of the party. Ahahah!
Jason, Me, Aloysius.
Jason and me.
Throwback: 7th March Carlson's 21st
| 1:17 AM | 0 ruler breaker
Finally went for Chinese physician to fix my elbow, and I've to head out with bandages.
Headed back to school for the first "holiday" meeting for the OCP trip. Got to know which group I'm assigned to, and I'm being assigned as the group leader. Ahaha! The next few weeks, will be busy preparing for the trip and bonding session with the team and group. Wheeeeeeee~
Headed down to pasir ris for Carlson's 21st. And it was pretty awkward at the start, cause I know nobody there, except for Carlson. So thank god, he's still free, so he could accompany me first. Had a candlelight buffet dinner with him, (awwww, sound sweet isn't it?) but it's more like dinner with his laptop, DSLR and phone instead cause he's busy with stuffs.
Soon after dining, I get to know that my 寶貝兒 is coming over to the chalet as well, with her bf of course. So I waited for her to arrive and stayed till cake cutting. I guess if she didn't contact me, I would have left at around 9pm. But thank goodness she's there with me. Heh.
Almost missed my last bus home. And the bus ride home was quite long~ So during that bus trip, a lot of things came to my mind. And yes, overthinking again......
Labels: Birthday Parties, My life
Throwback: 4th March
| 12:09 AM | 0 ruler breaker
Met up with two of my loves at town. All we did was shopping and chilling. Nothing much to really write about that night but all I can say is I've learnt something new. Something about you, but well, it doesn't really matter at all. Neither will it change a single thing I feel about you. Sorry.
But I'm glad that they told me those, and actually made me realised you once loved me, once afraid that you'll lose me. :)
Catching up with the girls, and it's pretty good! Slacked and gossiped and selfies like all other girls would do whenever they meet up. Ahahah!
Labels: My life
Throwback: 3rd March
Wednesday, March 12, 2014 | 11:44 PM | 0 ruler breaker
FINALLY, I'VE COMPLETED MY 3 YEARS OF POLY LIFE WITH MY LAST PAPER!!!
These 3 years of life, I could say, it's awesome! Met awesome people, made awesome friends, made awesome memories.
But I can't confirm if I'm able to graduate yet, cause I've got no confidence with my results.
Labels: My life
Throwback: 2nd March Shiying's 21st
| 6:44 PM | 0 ruler breaker
Today marks the day when we celebrate my sister from a different parent's 21st! Have yet to mention her name, she's none other than Tay Shi Ying!
Headed down to her chalet which is located at Aloha Loyang at around 4pm with all my "barang barang" (personal belongings). Upon reaching, I'm handed a task to fulfill. Help out with the decorations. The whole venue is so "clean" with no decorations, with nothing, just like a normal chalet.
Soon, after she had herself washed up, I helped her to do some make up, so as to make her look prettier in the night and of course, it's her big day! (I hope I didn't mess things up) and when we are done, food have arrived and we started dining. Not forgetting seeing all my favourite SFACO people, I mean it's been ages since I last saw them. Maybe my 18th birthday?
Dine, catch up, took photos, cut cake, and we headed off before we miss the last bus.
Now, let the photos do the talking.
Monique and I was playing with the props, and not forgetting BabyClover at the back photobombing.
Training to be a mother. Cheh, kidding.
Just playing with BabyClover. And she's playing with the props.
Another shot of Monique and me playing with the "lips"
Monique with her prop in her hand while I'm having BabyClover in mine.
Another shot of #selfie
HongWenSchool clique shot!
Monique, Shiying, me, Aloysius
SFACO clique shot.
Front row (Left to right): Sherli, Zihui, Clovis, Chloe, me, Monique, Yunqi, Meihong
Back row (Left to right): Eric, Qijun, Clover, Shiying, Aloysius, Ahber, Zhiping
Labels: Birthday Parties, My life
