How I wish I aren't that weak when it comes to you...

Asking me to move on and get over it, but why did you even come back to explain to me, then push me away. I gathered a lot of courage to put everything behind already, but your one text at 3am makes me weak again.

You know I'll always have a weak spot for you, and you know how I will always give in to you. But you'll never know how hard I tried to gather those courage to leave everything behind or even bury them at the deepest part of my memory and lock it there.

Just one text, a text at 3 damn am, everything just floats back, that bridge I built towards you got tore down. You made me wonder, why things turned out this way. We both loved each other, but yet we have to bid goodbye. If we both have that courage to overcome everything together, will things still turned out this way?

To be very honest, as much as I want you back, there's always this part of me, disallowing myself to be ruined by you again. I don't want you, but yet I don't wanna lose you. So well, I guess, I could only say, I won't want you back as my boyfriend, but I want you back as a friend. Someone who actually know me almost all, and could give me the truth (even when it hurts)

They say, "once bitten, twice shy". Now, I'm giving you the third time to stay, as a friend. But I'm not going to be like how I was for the past two times, letting you run over me and not say a word.