How can someone who's so close to you, just turn his/her back on you within a night?

Things between us was so much better when I was back in that industry. But ever since I start my new phrase, we distanced. We no longer text all day and night, neither do we have late night talks, and don't even mention on those unexpected video calls.

I guess, you're tired. Tired of my nonsense, tired of my childishness, my clingy-ness, or I would just say, you're just tired of me.

I'm just a burden of yours, I can't help you with anything, not your work, not your hobby, nothing. My existence only cause you to spend more money, cause I'm just an "expenses", not an "asset" to you.

Maybe, just maybe, when I'm more capable, you'll turn back and look at me again. I can't be assured that by then, I still hope for the best between us, but I just hope that we will still be friends, and you're still someone whom will still pick up that call when I'm down.

I remember how I used to "eye-candy" you when I was still in Primary school, more than a decade ago. I used to hang out with my childhood friend at the McDonald's nearby, and back then, you're just a part time waiter there.

I guess it's "fate" that brought us back to meet again. But this time, you're the customer while I'm the waitress. Not sure when was it, but I can't forgot how we actually "acknowledge" each other back again. You're using board 17 while I'm clearing the cups, and just when I walk pass you, you asked, "Do you stay around Jalan Besar? Last time always go McDonald with your Mom?"im

I was shocked! So shocked that at that point of time, I'm thinking "WHO THE HELL ARE YOU?! Why do you know where I stay and I used to go McD that often?" After around like 30minutes of thinking and thinking, I remembered that look. Not much of a change, but not that guy I used to see in McD (like duh~)

But we still don't talk, even when we became friends in Facebook. The first time we are sorta close, was when we went for supper together with our mutual friend. If I'm not wrong, was after X'mas or New Year. 

Then there comes one day, we talked, in Facebook messenger. All day and night, till one day, out of a sudden, we decided to watch "Fast and Furious 7" together with our friends. Back then, even when we both have each other's number, we still communicate thru Facebook.

Just out of a sudden, he whatsapp me, but it's regarding our mutual friend. And there, we started talking and talking. Meet up individually for dinners, watch movie, darting and etc. We got so close till most of our mutual friends thought we are together, but the fact is, we are not.

We are just FRIENDS.

Sad fact, but that's true. We're just friends, nothing more. Maybe to others, we are like more than friends, but less than lovers. Maybe that few months when we were close, we really did gave people that impression, but sadly, things changed....

But I guess, it's alright. I've learnt the fact that people come and go. No point forcing someone whom want to leave to stay, cause at the end of the day, both parties will get hurt. 

趁现在还没陷入太深，慢慢再爬起来会比较容易。

我不可能一直让自己陷下去。

可是，我很想问，我们到底有没有可能？

因为我很了解我自己，如果我真的真的把你当哥们看，我们就完全不会有可能了。