Throwback- 25th March Life?
Tuesday, April 8, 2014 | 11:52โฏAM | 0 ruler breaker
Just another late night thought.
My 6th sense can never be wrong about things. Why do I have to feel that I'll have to retake a module or two? Why do I have to think that I can't graduate on time? Why? Must those thoughts and feel be so right? Why can't they just be wrong for once? Just once, and surprise me by proving me that I felt wrong?
And yes, by reading the first part, you'll prolly know what's going on. My results are out, and it's how I expected it to be. (Just pass or fail) it just sucks to know that I've done this badly for my semester. I don't know if I should say it, but I'll partially blame it on the break up. But mainly, it's still me. Sigh.
Looking back at my three years of poly, I've seriously no idea what I did. I've been wasting a lot of time, on a guy, whom isn't worth it after all. I can never ever understand that. I've no idea why, I would rather spend time with him, than to study. I mean, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!
To be very honest, I don't mind retaking a semester. But what is a semester with one module which is only 2-3 hours lesson for a day?! For that, actually still alright, cause other days I can plan for work. But, WHAT IF THE SCHOOL FEES ARE STILL THE SAME?? Like $1k?! I just can't......
It just totally sucks man. People asked if I'm alright when I saw my results. I mean, I'm perfectly fine. But I've no idea why, when it comes to K.L, I just feel so inferior?! I mean, I just think I'm never good enough for him. Especially when this happen, it just demoralize me more. Maybe it's a sign? A sign that I should not have that high hope? ๐ ๅฏ่ฝ๏ผๆฏๅ่ฎๆๆพๆ็็็ฑๅงใ
You just got that "thing" that makes me attracted to you. I can't put it in words, but just that "thing" that caught my eyes. And to be very very very honest, I honestly think that I don't fit him in every way. I aren't gentle; I aren't sweet; I aren't pretty; I aren't skinny. I don't have that "thing" that attract guys, or maybe I do, but they just attract the wrong ones. Too many things come to my mind when it comes to you. And I seriously hate it. Sigh.
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