Day 113 of 2014: Thoughts...
Wednesday, April 23, 2014 | 12:46 AM | 0 ruler breaker
Time passes very fast, 113 days have passed.
Tonight, thoughts hit me hard again. The horoscope analysis is so true, "the person whom I love don't love me, and I don't love the person who love me." It happened all the time, like literally, ALL THE TIME. Ever since the last relationship, till now. The person I love will not love me back, and I'm pushing the people who love me away.
Tonight, I'm thinking again. Thinking if I should just let it go, thinking if I should just stop my feeling I had for you. I wouldn't deny that the past two evening spent with you was awesome. *even when we are not spending it alone, but it's still awesome* I know I should treat you like a friend, just a friend. But I just can't do it. But I will try my best to keep the feelings to myself, and act like I don't love you anymore. Like I said in my previous post, if I can switch my feelings off for KY, I can switch it off for you too.
There's by far no limit for my tolerance, I always believe that if I truly want that person, I will do my very best to get that person. I won't give up until it comes to the day whereby I really see nothing anymore, or the day when I'm really too tired to chase for it anymore. I want you, want to be called yours, but why is that seems so impossible?
I still remember the times we text every single day, from the moment we wake up, till we go to bed. I still remember the times when we have endless topic to talk about. I still remember the times when I pour my heart out to you and you listen to me patiently. I still remember the night when I called you up and whine about that guy who creep me out. I still remember the night when I cried because we quarreled.
I'm not giving up yet, cause I know I've not done my very best yet. I will only give up when I can't do anymore things to win you. I know you'll push me away, cause I don't even have that little bit of "thing" you want your girlfriend to have. I will never be up on that name list. I don't care how you wanna push me away, I don't care how bad you wanna treat me. Cause no matter what, you can never hurt me as badly as how KY ever did.
Holding on........
Labels: #KLJW, Late night thoughts
