Page 365, last page for Life of RuiJia in 2013
Another year filled with tears and laughter, fun and anger.
And yes, 2013 is coming to an end. Today marks the last day of the year, and when the clock strikes 12am, we will welcome 2014.
To me, I find that 2013 flew by my shoulder without me knowing anything. Maybe I focus much on things that I shouldn't and neglect in working for a better future? Or maybe because this year indeed flew pass everybody's shoulder. Hmmmm.
Let's recall back what I've done in this 2013...
Welcomed 2013 together with you and the rest was rather the best feeling ever, even though shit happened, but still enjoyed it. Still remember after we managed to resolve that crack, heaven put us into another challenge, bringing you away from me for 3 weeks. That 3 weeks, I can say was rather a tough 3 weeks. I can't contact you, can't see you, can't get to know if you're doing well, just NO NEWS ABOUT YOU! All I remember was asking your mom if she could help to bring in letter for me, but she said she can't bring in and told me that you seems restless there. Sixth sense told me something isn't going well there. Worry for you here, but yet can't do anything to help is the worst thing ever!
3 weeks passed by, spend that last day with le sexy and accompanied him to mahjong at JoyceS's place. Missed school, because I'm late for class, and I'm worrying about you. When they're mahjonging, I'm waiting patiently for your call. Waited for 1 hour, 2 hours, from morning till dawn. No calls, no messages, but saw one tweet from you saying you're back. Me and sexy also bet on who you'll contact first, we bet on each other instead of ourselves. And indeed, you contacted him before me. After their mahjong session, me and sexy cabbed back and finally, I MET YOU AFTER 3 WEEKS! That joy, that happiness, I can't describe.
One challenge down, another problem came along. We quarreled once again, over J AGAIN. Still remember how you ruin my "perfect boyfriend" image of you. I don't know why, but my sixth sense told me something wrong, I don't know why but I can even tell sexy that "Even if something happened between the both of them, I will still forgive. Cause what happen happened, I can't rewind time and stop that from happening" Still remember how you tried to push me away during Giorgio's birthday celebration, still remember how hard I cried that night. That pain, I will never forget. But I already said, even if something happened, I will forgive. So I did.
First time getting dead drunk because of you. So drunk that I've totally no idea what shit happened, all I remember was me running to toilet at your place. And the last scene was me going to your friend's table and drink, and that's it. That night, I will drink that much, is because we reconfirmed the situation. And I think beer plus liquor can kill me badly. AHAHAH! All I was told is how sexy carried me in one arm, and held you in another and sent us home. And I was told I vomited at the table? LOL!
Went Bangkok with family during the vacation break, it was awesome! Bangkok was indeed a shopping paradise! A 5D4N trip is definitely enough for shopping, but not enough if you're adding sightseeing in your schedule.
Spending almost everyday with you, was like the best thing ever. One day, you decided to be a club promoter, and of course, as your girlfriend, I support you. Helped you with all my might, even when I'm needed to just head down to help you get a chop and cab home, I also did that. Think back, help you earn that few bucks, and I cabbed home, it's pretty much stupid! I rather pass you that cab fare I spent right, I mean it's more than what you'll get. Hmmm.
Still remember you get pretty close with a girl, JoyceL. I got so damn jealous, because I happened to see those conversation between the both of you, I can't help to think. After all, that incident, really makes me paranoid. And because of jealousy, we quarreled numerous time. Still remember, a night, we talked about this issue. I sat and cried, you hugged me, and told me, there's nothing between the both of you. That warmth, that reassurance, was all I ever needed. "Always be my baby", a song that makes me feel loved.
But I don't know since when, I can't feel your love anymore. Even when you're by my side, all I felt was your body, but not your heart. Even when we hug, I don't feel that warmth anymore. Even when we kiss, all I felt was that lips and not that love. And worst, you don't even want to make time for me. When both of us are in school, asking you for lunch after your school was like asking you to die. Asking you out for supper when we live so near was like asking you to jump down of the building.
And soon, after all these happened, you left. And soon after you left, I found out that even before we broke up, you actually had something on with another girl. Worst is when we are still together, I felt it. Why must my sixth sense about such things always have to be true?
I won't deny that the first few weeks of break up, I cried every single day and night. I end up being friends with the girl whom I got jealous of, and we became close. She invited me to her birthday celebration in clubs, and still remember that night, I saw you, and we quarreled? Saying want to slap me when you saw me? Hmmmm.
Still remember I always say I wouldn't mind losing everything to have a night with you. And shit happened that night, I lost my entire bag. And miracle happen.
Another 2 weeks of "dating" period with you, everything just feel the same, except for the part that we are not together? 2 weeks passed, shit happened, and we are over. Officially over. You found your new love and moved on, while I'm still stuck there.
2 months later, I found out a gift you left for me. Thanking you for it, but sad to say, I don't wish to keep it. So I've to give up on that gift, and bid goodbye to everything that you've left.
Japan trip with school was fun and exciting! Went with 4 of my men and their company was indeed the best! Spent nights at one of their room having supper and chit chat. What's best is during that trip, I made a good friend, Judy, my roomie and an awesome group of men, Teckkeong, Junliang, JingSheng and XianJing! This awesome group of men, nickname: KONICHIWA, was there even when we're back in Singapore. Each meet up never fail to make me laugh.
4 months of back to single ship, and I'm getting happier and happier each day. Learnt how to love myself more and more. Leaving you at where you should be left, putting a stop to "us" and move on with "me". Think back, within this 4 months, I've tried to date 3 guys? But every guy just disappoint me like how you did.
Ohwell, since 2013 is coming to an end, I should really leave everything in 2013 and move on.
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Things doesn't hurt me
RUIJIA HONG, Jessica.
Also known as Rjellybeano
Sagittarius, 10th December. Attached to Mr Ng JH. I'm proud that I'm living in a beautiful city called Singapore.
If you people really want to know so much about my past, you can visit ruijiaaa.bs.com to read about my life from 2007 till 2013.
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Page 365, last page for Life of RuiJia in 2013
Another year filled with tears and laughter, fun and anger.
And yes, 2013 is coming to an end. Today marks the last day of the year, and when the clock strikes 12am, we will welcome 2014.
To me, I find that 2013 flew by my shoulder without me knowing anything. Maybe I focus much on things that I shouldn't and neglect in working for a better future? Or maybe because this year indeed flew pass everybody's shoulder. Hmmmm.
Let's recall back what I've done in this 2013...
Welcomed 2013 together with you and the rest was rather the best feeling ever, even though shit happened, but still enjoyed it. Still remember after we managed to resolve that crack, heaven put us into another challenge, bringing you away from me for 3 weeks. That 3 weeks, I can say was rather a tough 3 weeks. I can't contact you, can't see you, can't get to know if you're doing well, just NO NEWS ABOUT YOU! All I remember was asking your mom if she could help to bring in letter for me, but she said she can't bring in and told me that you seems restless there. Sixth sense told me something isn't going well there. Worry for you here, but yet can't do anything to help is the worst thing ever!
3 weeks passed by, spend that last day with le sexy and accompanied him to mahjong at JoyceS's place. Missed school, because I'm late for class, and I'm worrying about you. When they're mahjonging, I'm waiting patiently for your call. Waited for 1 hour, 2 hours, from morning till dawn. No calls, no messages, but saw one tweet from you saying you're back. Me and sexy also bet on who you'll contact first, we bet on each other instead of ourselves. And indeed, you contacted him before me. After their mahjong session, me and sexy cabbed back and finally, I MET YOU AFTER 3 WEEKS! That joy, that happiness, I can't describe.
One challenge down, another problem came along. We quarreled once again, over J AGAIN. Still remember how you ruin my "perfect boyfriend" image of you. I don't know why, but my sixth sense told me something wrong, I don't know why but I can even tell sexy that "Even if something happened between the both of them, I will still forgive. Cause what happen happened, I can't rewind time and stop that from happening" Still remember how you tried to push me away during Giorgio's birthday celebration, still remember how hard I cried that night. That pain, I will never forget. But I already said, even if something happened, I will forgive. So I did.
First time getting dead drunk because of you. So drunk that I've totally no idea what shit happened, all I remember was me running to toilet at your place. And the last scene was me going to your friend's table and drink, and that's it. That night, I will drink that much, is because we reconfirmed the situation. And I think beer plus liquor can kill me badly. AHAHAH! All I was told is how sexy carried me in one arm, and held you in another and sent us home. And I was told I vomited at the table? LOL!
Went Bangkok with family during the vacation break, it was awesome! Bangkok was indeed a shopping paradise! A 5D4N trip is definitely enough for shopping, but not enough if you're adding sightseeing in your schedule.
Spending almost everyday with you, was like the best thing ever. One day, you decided to be a club promoter, and of course, as your girlfriend, I support you. Helped you with all my might, even when I'm needed to just head down to help you get a chop and cab home, I also did that. Think back, help you earn that few bucks, and I cabbed home, it's pretty much stupid! I rather pass you that cab fare I spent right, I mean it's more than what you'll get. Hmmm.
Still remember you get pretty close with a girl, JoyceL. I got so damn jealous, because I happened to see those conversation between the both of you, I can't help to think. After all, that incident, really makes me paranoid. And because of jealousy, we quarreled numerous time. Still remember, a night, we talked about this issue. I sat and cried, you hugged me, and told me, there's nothing between the both of you. That warmth, that reassurance, was all I ever needed. "Always be my baby", a song that makes me feel loved.
But I don't know since when, I can't feel your love anymore. Even when you're by my side, all I felt was your body, but not your heart. Even when we hug, I don't feel that warmth anymore. Even when we kiss, all I felt was that lips and not that love. And worst, you don't even want to make time for me. When both of us are in school, asking you for lunch after your school was like asking you to die. Asking you out for supper when we live so near was like asking you to jump down of the building.
And soon, after all these happened, you left. And soon after you left, I found out that even before we broke up, you actually had something on with another girl. Worst is when we are still together, I felt it. Why must my sixth sense about such things always have to be true?
I won't deny that the first few weeks of break up, I cried every single day and night. I end up being friends with the girl whom I got jealous of, and we became close. She invited me to her birthday celebration in clubs, and still remember that night, I saw you, and we quarreled? Saying want to slap me when you saw me? Hmmmm.
Still remember I always say I wouldn't mind losing everything to have a night with you. And shit happened that night, I lost my entire bag. And miracle happen.
Another 2 weeks of "dating" period with you, everything just feel the same, except for the part that we are not together? 2 weeks passed, shit happened, and we are over. Officially over. You found your new love and moved on, while I'm still stuck there.
2 months later, I found out a gift you left for me. Thanking you for it, but sad to say, I don't wish to keep it. So I've to give up on that gift, and bid goodbye to everything that you've left.
Japan trip with school was fun and exciting! Went with 4 of my men and their company was indeed the best! Spent nights at one of their room having supper and chit chat. What's best is during that trip, I made a good friend, Judy, my roomie and an awesome group of men, Teckkeong, Junliang, JingSheng and XianJing! This awesome group of men, nickname: KONICHIWA, was there even when we're back in Singapore. Each meet up never fail to make me laugh.
4 months of back to single ship, and I'm getting happier and happier each day. Learnt how to love myself more and more. Leaving you at where you should be left, putting a stop to "us" and move on with "me". Think back, within this 4 months, I've tried to date 3 guys? But every guy just disappoint me like how you did.
Ohwell, since 2013 is coming to an end, I should really leave everything in 2013 and move on.
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