Am I really happy?
Sunday, September 29, 2013 | 1:35 AM | 0 ruler breaker
Finally, my sun starts to shine a little.
Still trying hard to clear those dark clouds that's crowding around my sun for months. Not easy, but still trying. Somehow, some things are still bothering me. But it's not about what's happening now, but what already happened. Cause I can still never forgive myself for making that decision, which brings you away from me.
But I'm still smiling, cause it not only make me feel like I'm "happy" but also make others think that way too. A smile on my face, might also brighten another's day. So why not, it's like I brighten both mine and someone's day. Bringing smile to another's face.
Ever since he's gone, I realised how it's like to be really free. Free from control, free from controlling myself from doing things you don't like, free from having unwanted quarrels, free from unwanted tears, free from a lot of things.
And ever since he's gone, I tend to pamper myself more. With more good food, with facial, with manicures, really pampering myself. But because of such pampering, I'm really broke. But I'm also happy that I'm working to keep myself busy. Busy from unwanted negative thoughts which actually brings me to no where.
Just remember, a smile not only brighten your own day, it brighten someone else's too.
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