This post is gonna be very random, and idk if this should even be up here. But..........

I've no reason why, but today, I have a strong urge of asking KY why he hate me so much. Like  really hate me to the core. She once told me how you bad mouth about me in front of her, and tell her how bad I was. I mean, I don't care how you bad mouth me, idc how much you hate me, but it's just unfair.

I know I shouldn't even be bothered about you hating me, or whatsoever. But I really can't think of a reason why you'd to hate me this much. I really don't. Cause it's not as if I've done anything wrong in our relationship. The wrong thing I've ever done in that relationship is that I became close friend with my suitor, and idk why would you even think that I've got a "leg" with him.

I should be the one who's hating, not the one being hated. Think about it, look at the number of wrong things you've done to me, and the number of wrong things I've done towards you. It's like idk man. Reason why I don't hate is because hating is too tiring. And why hate? I mean, I choose to focus on the goods than the bad. Even thou there's way more bad than good.

I'm really hesitating, if I should, or I should not. 😔💭