27 November,
Wednesday, November 27, 2013 | 11:15 PM | 0 ruler breaker
Ever long for something or someone you love which is lost?
I believe everyone does, just like me. I once longed for someone whom I love a lot, even when he's gone. I thought he would actually looked back, back at our memories being together, back at how I loved him when he's still mine. But, he didn't. I thought, he will regret someday, for leaving, but, I'm wrong. I thought, he still have that little feeling for me and for us, but then again, he proved me wrong.
As time passes, he met his new love, his love of his life. I admit, at the start, I blamed her for snatching him. Then again, I'm thinking, if he really loves me, there's no way, any girl can snatch him away. Slowly, I let go of my arms, collected those shattered pieces of my heart, and fix them piece by piece on my own.
And slowly, I gave up. Gave up on hoping that one day, he'll return. Gave up on hoping that one day, he'll actually turn and look at me. Gave up on thinking that he still loves me. Gave up on every single thing I'm holding on that will link me back to him.
Finally, I'm here. Standing stronger than before. Smiling wider than when I'm with him. Laughing louder than I should. Yes, I still have down moments. There're still times when I overthink. Memories flooding me. But nothing's gonna break me down like how you broke me.
I've to admit, you're so right about me being so much happier without you than when I'm with you. You once told me, I'm like killing myself to be with you. And I stupidly denied, and told you, I'm happiest when I'm with you. WHO AM I KIDDING? It's really obvious that I'm so much so much so much so much happier without you!
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