They say put a smile on your face and things will get better. But they didn't teach me how to keep that smile on my face when everything is turning my smile the other way round.

They always say look on the bright side of life. But how can I look on the bright side when every side of my life is dull?

I've no idea what luck my family is on now, but everything is just aren't on our way. First is momma getting injured, then my bro falling ill, then my toilet have water leaking from the ceiling, then my fan broke because I accidentally pushed it too hard. It just came continuously.

So much of me wanting to get schedules for work; but I just can't get any. So much of me wanna learn kickboxing/Muay thai, but things just gotta get cork up. So much of me wanna have that getaway, but just get postpone and postpone and postpone.

Seriously, every single shit at home is getting old. And yet I can't do shit to change it. Even if I've the ability and the rights to change it, I don't even have the money. Why is money always the problem for everything?! Right at this moment, I really feel like giving up on my studies, for that one fucked up module and just work for the rest of my life.

I seriously hate it when money is the issue to every single shit! Debts and debts and debts. WHEN THE HELL AM I GOING TO CLEAR IT! All because of you, I've this debts to clear. All because of you, my life gets fucked up. Times like this, I really hate you! HATE YOU TO THE FUCKING CORE! 😠😡😭

RUIJIA HONG, Jessica.
Also known as Rjellybeano

Sagittarius, 10th December. Attached to Mr Ng JH. I'm proud that I'm living in a beautiful city called Singapore.



If you people really want to know so much about my past, you can visit ruijiaaa.bs.com to read about my life from 2007 till 2013.

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"I'm fine"

Monday, June 16, 2014 | 12:26 AM | 0 ruler breaker

Everything is break me up.

Everything is crashing down on me.

They say god plan it this way because something worst is happening at the other side. But they didn't mention how worse it'll be at any other sides.

They say rainbow will come after storms. But they didn't tell me when will the rainbow appear or when will the storm stops.

They say when you stay positive, nothing can break you down. But they didn't teach me how to stay positive or know that some things might break you down even when you're super optimistic.

They say put a smile on your face and things will get better. But they didn't teach me how to keep that smile on my face when everything is turning my smile the other way round.

They always say look on the bright side of life. But how can I look on the bright side when every side of my life is dull?

I've no idea what luck my family is on now, but everything is just aren't on our way. First is momma getting injured, then my bro falling ill, then my toilet have water leaking from the ceiling, then my fan broke because I accidentally pushed it too hard. It just came continuously.

So much of me wanting to get schedules for work; but I just can't get any. So much of me wanna learn kickboxing/Muay thai, but things just gotta get cork up. So much of me wanna have that getaway, but just get postpone and postpone and postpone.

Seriously, every single shit at home is getting old. And yet I can't do shit to change it. Even if I've the ability and the rights to change it, I don't even have the money. Why is money always the problem for everything?! Right at this moment, I really feel like giving up on my studies, for that one fucked up module and just work for the rest of my life.

I seriously hate it when money is the issue to every single shit! Debts and debts and debts. WHEN THE HELL AM I GOING TO CLEAR IT! All because of you, I've this debts to clear. All because of you, my life gets fucked up. Times like this, I really hate you! HATE YOU TO THE FUCKING CORE! 😠😡😭

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